Well, maybe a soap opera.

I can't sleep tonight, and a lot of shit has been going down.

Firstly: I had the flu. Not the piggy plague, though! I was only down for a couple days before I started feeling better. The only problem is that now I'm coughing so hard I'm going hoarse and I'm now to the point where coughing hurts so bad I have to fight back tears, I've gone through two boxes of tissues in under 48 hours and I'm working on box three, because the sinus problems are only made worse by the fact that I've been crying and convulsing off and on for the past several hours (but NOT because of my coughing, actually).

I was crying because of my position at the zoo. Well, more importantly, my partner's.
Her bosses do not want her back. Or her sister. And it hurts to hear this, because I know how badly they needed these jobs- and now I am left unable to claim the position I applied for because I will have no place to stay, and no way to get to work. So for the past few hours I had been prepping myself for the situation: applying for more jobs, figuring out how I can swallow my pride and tell my mother that I can't take the position and listen to her try to tell me its all because I wanted to be with Brittany, and generally try to make it feel like my world is not falling apart.

In theory this bars us from seeing each other for our anniversary, and I am deeply troubled by this thought. I try to make myself feel better by realizing it's just a date on a calendar, but I just don't know how winter break is going to be enjoyable without her. For the sake of not sounding melodramatic, I'm going to shut up though.

There is only a minuscule amount of silver lining to this dark cloud, because I have received some good news. This does not, however, change the situation 'tween my partner and I. But the news is this:
I received an email from school about a refund of over three hundred dollars. This fixes my financial situation, but I still want to work over break. If I can save up enough money, maybe- just maybe- I can put it towards the cause of helping my partner.

So for now, I wish you all a happier story than mine, Once I am doing being distracted by My Life is Average, I am going to try and get to sleep one more time tonight. I hope you are well, and please keep us all in your thoughts.

I beg you, for our sakes.

Until Later-
Sunni